In My Opinion

I lost my uncle a few days ago. Still can't believe he's gone, that I won't c him or hear his voice again
Don't even wanna delete his numbers
I hate that he died, I hate how he died..
I feel I coulda done more, gone 2 c him, called him more often, encouraged him 2 come visit me when he wanted to
I feel really horrible, and sad, and angry
Angry with him, his ex-wife, angry with myself cos of mistakes I've also made
Its just made me think deeply about my life, and life in general

I abhor deceit
Detest it even
Life is too short 2 spend it wt ppl u don't feel safe with, and tbh its been a long tym snc ve felt safe

Dey start wt d lies
Den d omissions
Den u find out stuff
U hear stuff
Dey blv deir actions don't matter, after all dey are not hurtn ny1
Dey keep omitting 'seemingly innocuous stuff'
As if major catastrophes aren't a combin8n of loads of harmless stuff..
U know this deep down in ur heart but u kip ignoring it
U listen 2 deir 'customised truths' even hear dem lie wt Gods name
But u kip ignoring it
Until u end up dead 9 years after, all alone cos u dint get out years ago when u we're seeing all d 'little signs'
Until u end up dead @ his graveside cos u just found out he had 3kids and a wife dt u had no idea about
But u are to blame...cos u we're seeing all d lil signs, d stuff that 'doesn't really matter', wasn't 'such a big deal'
Until it killed u

How can stuff dat doesn't really matter kill u, how can what u did not know kill u?
Well they can, cos u let them

U c d signs, dey go on and on 4 so long but u still keep ignoring....

I hate secrets.. Cos they are fatal....if it really doesn't matter, or its not important den y du conceal it, y lie, y omit?

Until 1 lie turns into a hundred, and stealing turns into murder, until u realise ur sleeping beside a snake every night and not a human being

I hate secrets

If ur a liar, a cheat, paedophile, ritualist, porn star, or ur just addicted 2d opposite sex, please let us know who u really are, then we decide if we wanna b wt u regardless. But when its 1 rumour today, something we mistakenly find out 2moro that u did a while ago, a lie u told and uv forgotten.. When it 1 thing or d other every tym, pls get d hell out and go kill urself wt ur useless habits if u want, but don't let d fact dat u can't control urself lead 2 som1 else's death

Give people a long rope
Draw dem close
Dey start showing u their true colours, u loosen d rope
Give them a really long rope
Watch dem lie
Don't confront dem even when uv got proof
Watch keenly
Notice stuff they omit
Hear stuff but don't let on that u know
Watch dem keep makn fools of themselves cos dey tnk dey r getn away wt it
Cut d rope
Don't look back...
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