Wooooow

2011 was truly epic mhen !! I just peed in a cup on the bus on my way to church. I'm sure the cameras on the bus got me. Hope I don't get arrested or something. Oh I also peed in a bin in church in September. D devil is a liar !!!
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Reflections.....and looking forward

Its another New Year's Eve. My first away from home. I'd hoped to experience some of the typical 'eve experience' for the first time this year, with all the fireworks, hanging with friends and kissing my boyfriend at midnight. But hey, that's not happening. C'est la vie right?

2011 was the year !!!! Even in my wildest dreams I couldn't have imagined what the year had in store for me. But thank God for Jesus and the Holy Spirit cos I won't have survived otherwise. Heartbreak, illness, unfulfilled goals,problems at home....!!!

My blessing are innumerable however, and even if I had a million tongues I can't thank God enough. Daily testimonies...There is a lotta baggage and unresolved issues I thought I'd have gotten closure on before d year runs out but I'm still in limbo and its sooo frustrating.

But I'm finding peace with myself now, and things are not getting to me like before because I've realised that they are really unimportant. The year is ending on a good note, the past few days have been so much fun...

I thank God for everything, the miracles, his mercies, betrayals, thank him for life.

2011 was epic !!!! So many tears, revelations I couldn't fathom...I have no idea what 2012 will hold, but there are a few truths I've come to realise this year that I believe will help me cope regardless:

No Jesus, no nothing. Our walk with God is the most important thing in our lives, after all, eternity is not a joke. Besides, there are times in life when God is ALL we have left. Enough said!

The heart of man is truly desperately wicked, honestly I cannot overemphasize this. Its just best to put trust in God alone

Carpe diem - sieze the day. No waiting, no parking, no loitering, lol. But seriously, no arranging your life around people that have showed they are not worth it..... There's a question I once heard that got me thinking. "What would you do if failure wasn't an option?" If it was absolutely impossible for you to fail in an endeavour or action or vocation, what is that thing you've been putting off that you will do?

You never know...u just never know. You don't know what you will do until u are faced with a particular situation. You don't know if that seemingly happy couple are just putting up a public facade but one of them actually hates the other due to a previous grievance. You don't know if someone is secretly depressed, or even dropping hints which you ignored, and they commit suicide the next day....

Maybe the world will actually end in 2012 per the rumours, after all nobody knows the day right?

So have you really lived? Or are you just existing?

Happy New Year everyone!!!!
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Keeping up appearances

Nowadays its getting increasingly difficult for me to be out in public

People probably think I'm a snob or something. Understandably so, after the first two or three times I've told them 'Oh, I dint see you there'

But the truth is, I really did not see them. I could make out their silhouettes but not their faces, so its until they shouted out my name that I could acknowledge their presence

Its now down to recognising people from their voices, or the bright green top I saw them wearing earlier in the day

I should get glasses, or contacts....I should fix it, I know, but even if I could afford it, I'm still hesitant

Like maybe it would make me look less attractive, or like an old, stern schoolteacher.....or not even correct the eyesight, so I'd just have to keep upgrading my specification for a long time to come

And I also don't like been burdened with a routine, like having to stick my fingers in my eyes twice daily, or not being able to go anywhere without my glasses

In any case, its really embarrassing and needs to be fixed

So I'm stalling, waiting to get the money, but more importantly, waiting for a miracle that gives me 20-20 vision, so I don't even have to bother about any glasses or whatever

So it is in real life....when we let our pride or ego or vanity get in the way of what is really important...

What will people say.... or think? As if these 'people' aren't insignificant pawns in the grand scheme of things

We don't talk about God in public, don't talk about him at all, cos its not 'PC'....as if these people whose sensitivities we are considering , as if they rule our lives, as if God is not the most important part of our lives? Like we would even exist without him?

We don't bother about our soul, but focus on clothing, on our bodies, instead of fixing our foibles and sins

We know there are things....or people....or habits we should do away with, but we don't wanna offend people, or 'how will it look?'....or maybe it would affect our reputations

So do we 'fix' it.... or keep maintaining status quo until we cause ourselves irreparable, irreversible damage?

*P.C: politically correct
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70% off

My flatmate shops at Sainsbury's at least thrice weekly

Er, what's the big deal about this?

Well, he only goes at night, not too long before they close

He swears that this is the best time to go there, because you get really good deals on items that are close to their sell-by-date

According to him the items taste as good as ever, so why pay full price when you can get it for a third of the original price?

It got me thinking...like how sometimes in life when we feel we are past our sell-by-date, or beyond redemption...

Then 'all-of-a-sudden' we get what we've been working so hard for all along, and it seems like we barely did anything to get it

God's timing is best

When it comes, its even sweeter for us than those that 'got there' before us

It seems to the whole world like we only got it, or only got there at one-third the effort

Totally forgotten is all the suffering and hard work and sacrifice that went into it in the past
God makes all things beautiful in his time, nothing missing, nothing broken...

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