How long....

I beg your pardon in advance, but this post will be a tad macabre and tootaaly random, so u could stop reading here, thank you.

So I was thinking....if one died, like all alone in the room, how long would it take before the body is discovered? Or if someone was almost at the point of death, or say committing suicide, would there be anyone that would show even the slightest bit of concern and make them change their mind? Even if its just a phone call or blackberry message that makes them stop in their tracks?

So in my own case, I really don't know. My Mum of course even if she doesn't talk to me everyday, she and my Dad know I'm fine because I chat with my sister everyday.... So I'l assume if something were to happen to me it would be a case of. Sis: "Mum, have you heard from fearless today?" Mum: "No. Thought you were chatting with her. Ask friend A and Friend B. They haven't either? *packs bag* ...Morning of Day 2, after calling me repeatedly and possibly contacting the embassy, she boards the next flight out of town". Well maybe I exaggerated a bit but yeah I know my Mum won't take it lying down at all.

Then I have a friend back here who buzzes me at least once daily, and if she doesn't hear 4rm me will call or come round and keep her hand on the buzzer till someone lets her into my apartment and I do the same for her as well.

Another of my friends just freaked out because I stopped chatting mid-convo and at first thought I dozed off, but when there was still no reply after 6 hours had to start ringing me. So there are a few friends I know that will even come down here if need be or at least take some action. But while I appreciate them, this is not even about them, its about those that have showed how insignificant I am to them through their actions, and are also making me a worse version of myself in the process. Sometimes I think that if something really terrible happened, my spirit will not give them any respite. I'm being terribly puerile here, but still..

There are some people I also know that I'm responsible for and I have neglected them once in a while, but at least I thank God that I have one..or four people that value me enough to keep calling, or walk 200metres, or even take the next train to check on me.

This is not a sub, its just reality and I don't hold any grudges neither will I force anyone to know what I'm worth, but on the real I don't think it would take longer than a day before I'm found though, or maybe that's my over-inflated ego talking.

On second thought, my Mum's been bugging me to give her two of my friend's phone numbers in case she can't bet through to me, but for some weird reason, I've refused...lol?

So am I the only one that thinks like this at times?

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