J... is for..

A few years ago I was in the car with my ex and his friend. I think his friend was listening to something on the radio or reading something, then he turned to me and asked me if I could die for my ex. I laughed, like "R u serious??? That is ridiculous" and all, and my ex looked so hurt, saying he'd die for me in a heartbeat.

That remains to be seen though, he felt he could actually do it, but if a truck hit us that day, would he have shielded me and taken the full brunt of the impact? I really don't know, but to him, he felt he would have..

I lost a close relative and while we were at their house for condolence visit, the father kept saying how death was so cruel, and that y dint death take his mother instead of his child? And when we got home my Mum was so angry and kept saying how the man was a joker, that y dint he ask death to take him instead of his own child, that y bring his poor mother into it? That a parent should give their life for their child, and all that good stuff. So that's how I know, cos she implied it, that my Mum can give her life for me, or any of my siblings..

So in almost three decades of my life, only two people could possibly give their lives for me..

But Jesus... Oh sweet Jesus, even while I was yet a sinner, he bled till his last drop of blood drained out, all for me...

"Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one's life for one's friends.."

Y I luv Jesus'? Because there is no friend like him.. Especially at this point in my life where those I thought I was safe with still decide to make me the object of ridicule... So who else can be my best friend, the lover of my soul, the sweetest name to my ears, and my comforter?

When others used to be partial to people cos they were probably from the same tribe, or attended the same schools or something, my own weakness was always those that called on the name of Jesus, I always felt we had a bond somehow and I had a soft spot for them. I say 'had' now because I have been deceived by this before and let down my guard instead of observing actions, I was moved cos they were calling Jesus' name...

In Jesus I am safe, nothing and no one can hurt me again, he's my haven,my all in all..

I'm nothing, absolutely nothing without him. I won't be where I am today, I won't be as joyful as I am if not for him. Even though at times I feel like actually pouring my heart out to someone that can talk back to me audibly, but with Jesus, talking to him gives me peace, and when I hear that still small voice in response to my heart's words, I remember once again that he is real.

I thank God each day, that I was raised in a Christian home, and not just that but that I was raised by a mother who isn't just religious asper going to church 7x a week but still not living the life of a Christian..

My own mother wasn't just religious, she lives Christ, taught us the word of God, and even till now her impact is epic !!! I remember when I was in Uni and my Mum asked if I was a virgin and I was so happy to answer Yes, and she said that even when I have sexual urges, I should just talk to the Holy Spirit, and I will overcome

I love Jesus, there is nothing more important to me than making heaven. There are some times I just wanna burst, like I have to tell someone about this Lion that is also a Lamb, this friend that is also a lover, I can't tire of telling him how I love him, and he tells me back "Fearless u r awesome, u r beautiful, I luv u too"... There is NO GREATER LOVE..

Even when I do wrong and I see the consequences of my actions, I am still happy, cos I know that "Who the Lord loves he chasteneth" ...his love for me is awesome !!!

There is no life outside of Jesus...

I could go on and on and on, and as a matter of fact, this is the post I have been looking forward to writing the most

J...is for Jesus...the name above all names. If you've got Jesus, you've got all u need.

What better manufacturer than one who gave u a manual for your life- the BIBLE, freely.. So that you can live the best life ever..if u choose to
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